Monday, September 18, 2017


Hello guys! 
I've been listening to some music on repeat, here are the top ten on my playlist.

1. Savage Mode - 21 Savage & Metro Boomin

2. Don't Forget About Me - Cloves

3. Consuela - Belly ft. Young Thug & Zack

4. What They Want - Russ

5. Dirty Dirty - Charlotte Cardin

6. Big Boy - Charlotte Cardin

7. When We're High - LP

8. Way Down We Go - Kaleo

9. The Giver (Reprise) - Duke Dumont

10. Strange Entity - Oscar the Wolf 

Have you been listening to any of these? Tell me in the comments down below and if you have a similar taste in music to me, leave me some recs! Would love to check them out. 

Thursday, August 31, 2017

I'm BACK! & I have something to tell you..

Hello people! I'm back! 

I know, it feels kind of foreign to be writing on here again, but I'm here and that's all what I have to say. I owe you guys an explanation for why I was afraid of approaching blogging, it is the fact that I haven't been reading and I have fell into a slump that I don't know how to possibly get out of. I have stopped reading and have only read like 4 books in total throughout late 2016 and 2017. It sucks because I love reading and writing so much. They bring me a sense of euphoria that nothing else gives me, but I can't seem to extract myself from the shitthole that I've fallen into.

I've been sick for the last couple of days and haven't left my room in a while so that had me thinking.. who am I? I know that this question is easily answered by having a glance at my ID, but no. I haven't lost my mind quite yet. I want to discuss this, but forgive my scattered, unorganized thoughts. 

I have those days when I'm very goal-oriented, I know where my life is going, I know what I have to do to pave the way for that to happen. I never once really knew what my purpose is in life though, I was never sure of what I want to be, I have endless possibilities of who I could be in 10 or 20 years and I can't fathom the idea that I could make one wrong decision that puts me on the wrong path for years and when I finally reroute I'd be 60 years old and my life has wasted away. Don't get me wrong, I'm a firm believer in the fact that everything happens for a reason, but I'm too young right now (I'm 20) and I have no idea what I'm doing. 

Whenever I see people my age doing great things it motivates me to move my butt and do something, but yet again, I feel like my hands are tied for multiple reasons;
1- I still study, therefore I cannot get a steady job 
2- I live with my parents
3- I'm unable to finance myself due to the previously stated two reasons, therefore I lack the sense of independence. 
4- Here in Egypt, people don't fucking take you seriously when you're 20 years old even if you have ideas of gold. 
5- The willingness of people to take risks here is minimal, especially to follow the idea of said 20 year old, they'd be insane.
6- I'm a girl surrounded by sexist pieces of shit.

I instantly slide back into my cocoon of sadness and continue to watch people being successful as my ability to be up there with them is hindered by all stated reasons. I also look at this from another perspective and say well if I was really willing to try, I would've thrown all those 6 points in the nearest garbage possible and proven myself fit. I often think that these are excuses that I created to lessen the guilt factor and my sense of shame. 

Can I have a midlife crisis at 20? I keep telling myself that I need to chill and loosen up a bit, let the wave of life turn and toss me to eventually become who I'm destined to become, but fuck, I can't let this happen and not have a hand in doing so. I mean those who are successful really struggled to be where they are, even if there was a little bit of luck involved, but it was the right timing for luck and hard work to meet. It's quite contradictory of me because I believe that those who work hard enough will not be left unrewarded, but it's hard to think something and act on it.. I don't know. 

Please tell me if you have the same thoughts, I hope I'm not crazy for not knowing my purpose or who on earth am I yet. I'm still figuring this shit out so don't judge my crazy train of thoughts. 

I need your help with something, if you've made it this far, thank you! You're a trooper. Can you do me one more favor and recommend me a good pick me up book? Preferably a short myserty thriller. 

Give me a feedback on this post, as I'm not reading anything atm and I want to get back into writing, do you find sharing my thoughts entertaining or just boring?!! Comment down below :)  

Monday, August 15, 2016

THE NEWBIE'S GUIDE TO READING! | Mystery Recommendations

Hello lovelies, 
Uh .. I'm falling behind on posting again!!!! Whyy do I do that?!!!! 

Also I'm totally breaking the rules with my posting schedule and am posting on a Tuesday. I know, rebellious ha?

Now if you forgive me - *crosses my fingers you do*- today I'm going to recommend you all the mystery/thriller books that I have read and loved! I also put in the goodreads links and links to any reviews that I have written! 

1. Gone Girl by Gillian Flynn
2. The Girl on the Train by Paula Hawkins
3. Passenger by Lisa Lutz
4. Dark Places by Gillian Flynn
Goodreads | My Review
5. Never Never trilogy by Colleen Hoover and Tarryn Fisher
6. The Grown Up by Gillian Flynn
Goodreads | My Review

Have you read any of these? If you did, tell me in the comments down below!
Have a great day♥

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Wednesday, August 10, 2016

REVIEW | My Heart and Other Black Holes by Jasmine Warga

Trigger warning for suicide

This follows Aysel, a science nerd who battles with depression and wants to commit suicide so she starts searching for a suicide partner on a website and finds one who lives really close; Roman. Roman is a star athlete who is extremely popular, but battles with his own suicidal thoughts. The pair decides to make a Suicide Pact and decide to plan their deaths together.

This book was absolutely beautiful. First off, the writing was easy to read so the book felt like it was very fast-paced. The author put this tone in her writing that is inviting to read which made me read this in 2 sittings (which is rare for me because I haven’t picked up a book since April). I found that later, the author wrote this based on a personal traumatic experience which made the story more heart-felt than it already is.

Aysel was an admirable character. She seemed a little bit fiery and irritable at first, but in the end she had problems of her own. To be honest, I didn’t feel for her story as much as I felt for Roman because I didn’t get any backstory from her until the very end which really annoyed me. On the other hand, Roman was the highlight of this whole entire book. I loved him and my heart ached for him in every page I turn.

The contrast between the two characters was intriguing.  It was an amazing representation from the author that anyone can suffer from depression. The most popular guy in school who seems to have a perfect life can suffer from depression and contrary to that, the girl who walks the hallways with her face down while listening to the whispers of her schoolmates. It is great to shed light on the fact that you never ever know what somebody else is going through, no matter how happy or sad they seem on the outside.
I recommend this book to everyone, it’s amazingly written with very lovable characters, but be cautious, this is definitely a tear jerker. This book is extremely sad throughout the whole thing so mentally prepare for it!

Have you read My Heart and Other Black Holes? What did you think of it? Be sure to follow me on my social medias for more bookish updates♥

Saturday, August 6, 2016


Hello loves,

So today I'm sharing the top 10 books I'm planning on reading this summer! The list will definitely vary and expand. Also, I ran out of post ideas for now, so if you guys left me post suggestions in the comments, I'd truly appreciate it!♥

Here are the books that I'll start this Summer and hopefully get them all done since I'm in a terrible slump. 

1. Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close by Jonathan Safran Foer
2. How to Love by Katie Cotugno
3. Challenger Deep by Neal Shusterman

4. Falling Kingdoms by Morgan Rhodes
5. The Dream Thieves by Maggie Stiefvater (The Raven Cycle #2)
6. The Hidden Oracle by Rick Riordan

7. The Song of Achilles by Madeline Miller
8. The Sacred Lies of Minnow Bly by Stephanie Oaks
9. Golden Boy by Abigail Tarttelin

10. The Strange and Beautiful Sorrows of Ava Lavender by Leslye Walton

What do you have on your summer TBR list?! I'd love to know♥

Monday, August 1, 2016

Top Ten Tuesday #8 | TOP TEN BOOKS I NEED TO BUY!

TOP TEN TUESDAY is a meme hosted by The Broke and The Bookish

Hey guys! Happy Tuesday♥

So today I'll be listing all the books that are currently on my to buy list. This week's topic is perfect because I was just compiling this list to actually buy a week ago when I got back into the swing of things with reading and blogging.

I honestly can't believe I want so many books and am recovering from a slump..

1. Harry Potter and The Cursed Child by J.K. Rowling
2. Queen of Shadows by Sarah J. Maas #4
3. The Song of Achilles by Madeline Miller

4. Code Name Verity by Elizabeth Wein
5. The Nightingale by Kristin Hannah
6. The Sea of Tranquility by Katja Millay

7. Station Eleven by Emily St. John Mandel
8. The Sacred Life of Minnow Bly by Stephanie Oakes
9. The Shock of the Fall by Nathan Filer

10. The Dream Thieves by Maggie Stiefvater #2

What are the books that are on your to buy list?! Comment down below, I'd love to know!

Friday, June 17, 2016

Friday Finds #13

FRIDAY FINDS is a meme hosted by ShouldBeReading, it's where you showcase the books that you've discovered by browsing or that have been recommended to you and you've added them to your TBR.

1. All the Missing Girls by Megan Miranda

2. The Sudden Appearance of Hope by Claire North
3. Every Exquisite Thing by Matthew Quick

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